Today marks 5 weeks of being out of work and on the couch - thank you bed rest. Some would find this a vacation.
My breakdown:
Weeks 1 and 2 were difficult to let work go and stop trying to be in such control
Week 3 did seem partly like a vacation and things were looking good in terms of Jillian's arrival
Weeks 4 and 5 have been disappointing and utterly dull and boring
Emotions begin to run after a while and your mind never stops thinking. With every "I wish this was over with, I'm tired of being pregnant" thought comes the "everything happens for a reason and she's just not ready to arrive" thought. Every hour my mind set changes much like this Maine weather.
Speaking of weather, the sunshine has been a double edged sword. On one had it makes it difficult to remain sitting and inside but on the other side the sun is so refreshing to see. Gives me hope and reminds me to be patient and faithful.
Next OB appointment...Monday afternoon.
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